Why today’s sunset was so special!

I had promised myself, one of those ones that you always make to yourself. To give an example, working out every day, or learning a language or joining the driving school. Mine was a little different, I promised, myself, to go see the sunset today. There is something fascinating about the sunset, don’t you think? I certainly do. So, I was in my comfort zone, just chilling on my couch watching FRIENDS, wearing the dad’s T-shirt we all like to lounge in and the professional procrastinator that I am, just somehow was trying to escape from this dilemma of whether I must leave my comfort zone.

After, washing my face and wasting almost 10 minutes trying to get dressed. By the way, all this happening just 15 minutes before the sunset time in Bangalore, today. I just gave up thinking there is no point going out seeing the sunset and just sat there in my half worn outfit. I just wondered why don’t I just go step out to the balcony.

I could see the hue of the sky turning a slight saffronish and just couldn’t resist. I decided to go to my terrace which is 4 floors above me, Mind you! I climbed and saw that the sun had almost set. At first, my heart broke, that I couldn’t enjoy it but as I stood there wondering a thousand thoughts at once and none at all.

To be honest, there was this one thought that was quite prominent that I couldn’t get out of my head. That was, “What am I doing with my life?” Do you ever wonder about it? This conundrum that we just cannot come out of. While I do have a fair idea of where I want to be, I just do not know, how. Obviously, it is backed by the plethora of choices we all have today and the confusion to choose the fastest route to get there. It was like a web of consecutive thoughts that I was lost in whilst watching the beautiful sunset. Everything around me was silent and I and the sky just sharing a conversation as I am answering those questions. Like I’m answerable to the fierce crimson sky!

A passerby bird broke the silence in the conversation like he had a reason to intrude in the discussion. There was suddenly this cacophony of sound, creating some sort of an uncomfortable symphony. I could hear the dogs bark, the trees sway, the birds were chirping from the tree, like my thoughts were their gossip of the day. I heard the people around talk and laugh with the buzzing sound of a show on the television, which they weren’t bothered about. Like I was their evening news, a mandatory half to their evening discussions over tea. The masjid far away was calling for prayers like this was something I shouldn’t question. Like life is robotic, mornings should start with a toothbrush in the hand and the nights’ end with the same. What if I don’t want to do it for a day? Will there be an uproar? Some sort of jury would be appointed to discuss me in the court of law. Like it was a crime to walk on the less trodden, or just the one you were not expected to.

I couldn’t handle my thoughts and snapped out, looking at these huge apartments built right in front of my small abode. The fiery sky kissing the apartments, I wondered how the view would be, from one of those posh balconies. I made another promise to myself that I will be witnessing all the beautiful sunsets in the world, as many as I can and someday from my own house too, neither too small nor too big just sufficient in one of sky kissing posh apartment while sipping on the lemonade from life’s lemons.